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But on the other hand, I think that it was a real stroke of genius for the author to leave us in the dark. Jeff would rather forget and reject himself, and so by extension, do we. We only come to realize what Jeff is going through in small degrees, which perfectly m This is a very successful and fully realized first person point of view.
We only come to realize what Jeff is going through in small degrees, which perfectly mirrors the uncertainty and shame that he experiences.
The bandages on his wrists are nothing, just a bit of juvenile melodrama. Everyone tries it once, right? Jeff hides behind a thick layer of sarcasm and anger, which brings a surprising amount of lightness and humor to this book.
Cat Poop Katzrupus, and his rapport with his sister Amanda all had me snickering. When Jeff finally lets himself remember the circumstances leading up to his suicide, I was so consumed by his feelings that I found myself cringing with shame and embarrassment. I had to retreat back into my own head, where I could see everything more clearly.
I love that neither Jeff nor any of the other patients are magically cured. Nothing here is stable, especially not identity. I felt so sad for Rankin, but the next minute I wanted to give him my frostiest mom glare and tell him to leave my boy alone. How I wished that he could have the awkward dates, the first kisses, the anniversaries and school dances, instead of accepting this attention from Rankin.
Mwa ha ha! The lyrics are sad, angry, and wistful as he remembers someone who was a close childhood friend and who he lost to suicide.
Oct 18, Rachael rated it did not like it Shelves: I'll say it flat out: I detested this book. If I had read it ten or fifteen years ago, I may have thought it was okay, but this isn't the early nineties anymore. Gay kids don't always have to hate themselves and try to commit suicide.
Even if it does actually happen sometimes in real life, isn't it better to STOP writing books about how troubled and messed up gay kids are, and focus instead on writing books about how gay kids lead, I don't know, happy and productive lives? Think Alex Sanchez, Da I'll say it flat out: All of these authors write fairly realistic portrayals of gay teens without drawing on the old 'being gay makes you want to kill yourself' stereotype.
Add to this fundamental problem of an outdated storyline some fairly mundane, if not downright weak, writing, a main character who is not particularly interesting generic teenage standoffish behavior seems to be his only real personality trait , and a 'mystery' that was obvious within the first couple of chapters, and you come up with a book that is pretty lackluster. And then it gets downright offensive. I don't know about you, but when if I were to wake up to a naked person in my bed touching me sexually, and I said 'don't'.
How can an author write a book for teens that includes this type of behavior without making it a point to state that it is basically rape? It's downright irresponsible. Having read some of Ford's adult novels, I know that he has talent as a writer.
However, being able to write well for adults doesn't always translate into writing well for children or teens. In this case, he failed. View all 3 comments.
Jeff handles his situation with lots of denial wra 4. Jeff handles his situation with lots of denial wrapped in good humor. He absolutely refuses to acknowledge that he has a problem and he is determined not to talk about his reasons for cutting his wrists open. There are no heroes, no villains, no Big Drama whatsoever. Avoidance is his way to handle everything, but every now and again, a real feeling shines trough, be it anger at his parents for daring to save his life, resentment towards his doctors and nurses and the complete and utter hopelessness he feels about his situation.
I want to make this very clear: If I had my way but really, I never do , every thirteen-year-old on the planet would have to read three books: This was kind of an average read for me.
I didn't think it was really deep or hilarious. He became bearable then and also said some insightful things - listed below. He was snarky and mean and I wasn't impressed at all. I always have an issue with unreliable narrators like Jeff. I mean he doesn't tell us the whole story straight away and I don't understand why not. Maybe he was coming to terms with that too, but he just said he did it because he was 'bored'.
Of course, I didn't actually download that but hide spoiler ] I just don't like narrators who only tell us half the story and kind of leave it until the book is nearly over for some shock factor.
The writing was simple but I thought it was effective. It did sound like a 15 year old boy. The other characters were kind of one-dimensional but this is a story about Jeff though so I can understand why. I would have loved to have learned more about the other patients and learned what happened with them after Jeff left but I think we weren't given closure because Jeff probably didn't speak to any of the other patients after he got out.
I wasn't really attached to Jeff though so I didn't really care about getting closure with him. It was a quick, short read so I probably would recommend it to those who think it sounds interesting and I would probably read something else by Michael Thomas Ford. Only I wasn't really thinking about anything specific. It was just this stream of words and half thoughts, like there were a thousand different channels in my brain and someone was flipping through them one after the next.
But you can. It feels like something has crumbled inside you and the pieces are falling into you stomach. View all 7 comments. Mar 24, Tucker TuckerTheReader marked it as to-read.
As one who has been in a psych ward, I'm curious lto see how accurate this book is. Jul 07, Jo rated it really liked it Recommended to Jo by: Or whatever. The oth 4. This book caused very strong reactions in me, as you can probably tell.
Perfect combination of Family. Realistic, unflinching portrayal of kids with mental illnesses. Cat Poop. Watching old films. Gah… I loved this book. Low Points. I love Jeff. Except the important things. So just read it so we can discuss! Theme Tune. A little nod at Jeff and his, shall we say, predicament.
Angst Level. There are very graphic descriptions of self-harm and they are shocking and often difficult to read. But Ford perfectly depicts all the raw feelings that Jeff experiences and the scenes are never glorified and he never resorts to sensationalism which some authors tend to when dealing with suicide attempts and self harming.
Recommended For. People who love books that are a bit darker than your average. People who think they could do a better job at coming up with the dialogue of films. People who always wanted the bigger room that their siblings nabbed. People who feel that The Nutcracker has changed their outlook on life. People who are wondering how you can get to cookies and bears in the same conversation. You can find this review and plenty of other exciting stuff on my blog here.
View all 13 comments. Oct 21, C Steiner rated it it was ok. This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers. To view it, click here. The saving grace of this book for me - what brought it up from one star to two - is that I needed to keep reading it in hopes that the writing would suddenly interest me. Books about mentally ill teens are rare enough, and books about LGBT youth are even scarcer. However, Suicide Notes was overall a disappointment on both fronts.
The book opens with year-old Jeff arriving in a mental hospital on New Year's Day after a suicide attempt, reluctant to serve his day "sentence". From the get-go, The saving grace of this book for me - what brought it up from one star to two - is that I needed to keep reading it in hopes that the writing would suddenly interest me.
From the get-go, his voice is too immature to pass for After nicknaming his psychiatrist Dr. Katzrupus "Cat Poop", he continues to giggle about it for the remaining 44 days. He gives similar nicknames to all the nurses on the ward and refuses to any therapeutic exercises the least bit seriously.
As someone who has been through a similar program, albeit at a younger age, this was extraordinarily irritating to read, given the multitude of people who would like help like this but cannot receive it. Throughout the novel, Jeff repetitively finds himself in sexually compromising situations with two other patients, a pixie-ish girl named Sadie and a football player named Rankin.
Already, this is unrealistic, since they are in a four or five person psych ward and should be checked on far more often than would permit these encounters. In addition, these two people carry different tones for Jeff's narration. When Jeff is with Sadie, he describes the situations as more comfortable and reciprocated.
He at least seems to want to be with Sadie, until he attempts to have sex with her and can't bring himself to do so. This throws him off and makes him more upset than necessary.
In contrast, his times with Rankin border on sexual assault. He is never the one to initiate a situation with Rankin, with the other boy climbing into his bed without permission or leading him into the showers and forcing him to perform oral sex. Jeff seems uncomfortable with all of these situations, and while he acts curious to find out, for example, what a penis looks like up close, he is disconnected when narrating these encounters.
Afterwards, he always talks about how disgusting he feels, or how he wishes it had been a dream. Some day in the late 30s, we find out that the reason that Jeff attempted suicide is because he realized he was gay when developing and then acting on a crush on his best friend's boyfriend. This caused her to break off her friendship with him, and due to his negative attitude towards queer men in general, start to hate himself and deny who he was.
When he finally admits that he is gay, he justifies it with his encounters with Sadie and Rankin. He says that since he was unable to have sex with Sadie, it showed that girls were not for him, and that his sexual encounters with Rankin felt "right", despite the sickly feelings that accompanied them.
At this point, I had to put the book down and think about what was happening. Somehow, hardly consensual sexual encounters felt "right"? Regardless of whether or not Jeff was gay, this is not the right message for any book to send. My final problem with this was how Jeff reacted to Sadie's suicide at the end of the book.
He is momentarily shocked, but then mentions it for another four pages total at best in the last few days of the book. His sexuality somehow overshadowed the fact that his closest friend, in the ward and probably in the world at that point, killed herself out of nowhere.
Sadie seemed like she would have remained a part of his life once they had left the ward, and he barely thinks of her once she is gone, a highly unrealistic reaction.
Jun 03, Tink Magoo is bad at reviews rated it liked it Shelves: While I did enjoy this, it didn't quite tickle my funny bone or have the emotional impact it seems to have had for a lot of other reviewers.
It is, however, an important topic that needs to be talked about more without all the taboos that surround it. Jan 11, Thomas rated it it was amazing Shelves: What might look like the perfect life—or even an okay life—to you might not be so okay for the person living it.
It portrays so many themes and messages so perfectly with such authenticity that Jeff is one of the most uniquely realistic characters I've read. It's an hilarious read that had me in fits of laughter in several places -- the humour and sarcasm in this book were top notch! One of my favourite books of the year! View 1 comment. Oct 28, haley rated it it was amazing Shelves: If you haven't read this, you need to soon.
He's sarcastic, funny and easy to relate to. He says some very witty things, and for a book about suicide, there were some pretty funny moments that made me LOL. He also says some very introspective things too.
I like that view spoiler [ the author made Jeff an LGBT character without making his sexuality all that there is to him. Jeff is a very complex character, and since you don't find out he's gay until the end, you get to see Jeff as a If you haven't read this, you need to soon. Jeff is a very complex character, and since you don't find out he's gay until the end, you get to see Jeff as a person and not just as a gay guy hide spoiler ] Ugh, I can't even find the words to describe the brilliance of this book.
Just go read it. I've read some pretty amazing books these last few weeks, and Suicide Notes is one of them. Nov 08, E. This was to be a brief, light read between heavier books.
Brief, yes. Light, not so much. It was definitely humorous, a 15 year old wakes up in a mental ward after trying to kill himself. Ok, I know that doesn't sound funny, but it's in the delivery.
I knew that part going into it, but around the halfway mark more issues are revealed, to us and the narrator himself. The journey is short, only 45 days in the ward, but there's certainly a lot going on, involving therapy, parental visits, and other This was to be a brief, light read between heavier books. The journey is short, only 45 days in the ward, but there's certainly a lot going on, involving therapy, parental visits, and other kids in the ward. I enjoyed all the supporting characters.
Another YA book with adult situations. This had zero emotional impact on me.
It wasn't even bad or boring, but it just didn't affect me at all. And here's what I'm wondering: How come someone always saves the people who try to kill themselves and then makes them tell everyone how sorry they are for ruining their evenings? I keep feeling like everyone wants me to apologize for something. But I'm not going to. I don't have anything to apologize for. They're the ones who screwed everything up. Not me. I didn't ask to be saved. Am I lucky that, compared to the other kids here, my life doesn't s And here's what I'm wondering: What might look like the perfect life-or even an okay life-to you might not be okay for the person living it.
It feels like something has crumbled inside you and the pieces are falling into your stomach. It hurts more than any punch ever could. You stop breathing, and for a while you can't remember how. When you finally do, it feels like your throat has closed up, like you're trying to suck air through a straw.
Reading Suicide Notes really gave me all kind of feels. Tbh, I might have picked this book up at a wrong time. I'm not feeling so good myself lately. That's why even though it's a rather thin book, it took me a while to finish it. I was stalling because even though it started out as funny and entertaining, I knew itd hurt somehow. I really love how sarcastic and defensive Jeff was. It's his way of coping, even though he didn't know it at the time.
Or he refused to acknowledge. His family signed him up for a day therapy thing after his failed attempt to kill himself and he was disappointed, upset and angry. A teenage boy, wanting to escape life, was saved against his own will. I couldn't relate to it on that level but I understand what he was feeling anyway.
It's hard not to. This book was about Jeff, so even when the book also discussed about others, but since it's not about them, we don't get specific details about them. However, it's okay not to know. Because maybe then I'd be even more heartbroken. It reminded me of things I didn't want to remember, but it's okay.
It burns but it serves as a reminder that scars don't just fade and disappear. I didn't take the book too seriously at first because like I said, Jeff was funny. But then the last ten days before Jeff was allowed to go home, things were getting more intense. And just like that, walls and barriers were broken, as well as my heart. Okay that's probably a spoiler, but well, at least it'd give you the motivation to read it till the end though. If you're looking for answers and conclusions, then this book is not for you.
But what I can tell you is that sometimes, those are not important. But the satisfaction is in the story itself. It doesn't really satisfy me because Jeff's real issues were not discussed earlier in the book, so one month was wasted for nothing.
But I guess it opened a wider chance for them all to bond a little more, which made the impact of what happened even bigger and deeper.
So would I recommend this slow burn book? I would. Jul 07, Brooke rated it really liked it Shelves: Suicide Notes was a quick, witty, funny yet raw novel about Jeff, a 15 year old boy who attempted to commit suicide. After being admitted to a psychiatric hospital, Jeff has been told he will be completing a 45 day program to help understand and treat his mental health 'issues' and get his life back on track. Jeff was sarcastic and straight forward, his thoughts were no nonsense, and he was very easy to like.
I was reading this on the train on the way to work yesterday and nearly choked trying not to laugh out loud. It's evident from page one that he's in denial, and I was worried that the lack of acknowledgment of his own issues was going to be a problem, but as each chapter representing one day in the hospital progressed, Jeff formed relationships with co 'crazies' and began to understand both them and himself better.
Jeff and Dr Katzrupus fondly referred to as 'Cat Poop' , Jeff's psychiatrist, had a great relationship. The interaction between the two had me constantly laughing, despite the seriousness of the topics raised in this book.
I can imagine how incredibly difficult it would be to have a patient constantly throwing sarcasm in your face, and having to ignore it entirely. Some favourites: Goody took the paper cup she was holding out to me and put it back on the tray by my bed.
I might catch something. Then he put the pencil in his pocket. He handed me a sheet of paper. You have some free time now. I suggest you spend it getting to know the other people here. One of the nurses will bring you down there. I think I need a second opinion. I nodded.
I just thought you should know. He looked up. The look on his face was priceless. He totally bought the whole thing. View all 32 comments Cindy Thank you for your honest review. Bless you.
I hate spellcheck! The main character is Jeff, he wakes up in the psych ward and finds out he's going to be there for a bit of time. He tried to kill himself, but we don't find out until the end of the book why. I loved Sadie, she is a fellow inmate with Jeff and a few others. I enjoyed all of the characters. I loved little Martha, I felt so, so bad for her upon reading her story. Jeff is a pretty comical dude. He says a lot of crazy stuff and he calls his Dr.
His real name is Dr. I would stick with Cat Poop. Some of Jeff's random thoughts: There are five of us. In the fun house, I mean. I wanted to make money. His suicide note denied the charges,   stating that the sex was consensual,   and that he had fled to England because he felt he could not get a fair trial because of his homosexuality ,  and it added "I realised that I had already been presumed guilty.
I do not want to give any more embarrassment to my friends and family. President Bill Clinton 's administration, and also a law partner and friend of Hillary Clinton. A suicide note of sorts, in actuality a draft resignation letter, was found torn into 27 pieces in his briefcase.
The letter contained a list of complaints, specifically including, "The WSJ editors lie without consequence"  and lamenting, "I was not meant for the job or the spotlight of public life in Washington. Here ruining people is considered sport. Romain Gary —French writer. He wrote a suicide note explaining the reasons of his suicide and then shot himself in the mouth. Apart from his suicide note, he had stated: "I really had fun. Goodbye and thank you. Ham's note blamed the group's manager for his financial ruin, calling him " I will take him with me.
Suicide note included the line "Things just seemed to go too wrong, too many times". Mitchell Heisman, a year-old who held a bachelor's degree in psychology from Albany University. His suicide note was notable due to its unconventional format; at 1, pages, spanning topics concerning and not limited to human nature, society, religion, technology, and science, the suicide "note" was more akin to a grand philosophical tome.
Heisman published his book, Suicide Note, online for free download  within a day of finally shooting himself on the Harvard University Campus.
Written several minutes before my death. He suffered from bipolar disorder, and died in April Kim Jong-hyun —South Korean singer-songwriter and main vocalist of the boy band Shinee.
He had sent a note to a friend in which he wrote: "The depression that was slowly devouring me at last consumed me. What else can I say more. Just tell me I've done well. That this is enough.